Well, i've been on hiatus for couple month but here i am now. My schedule has been packed up these few months. There are times when i think to stop writing on this blog..but i guess i just can stop it, this is where i can put my thoughts without anyone judging. Its already end of December now, time flies like so fast. I guess on new year people tend to make a new year resolutions. Usually i don't really stick to having a 'new year resolution' but i think planning some things tho. These are some resolutions i've made:

1. Loving myself more

Yes. This is like a thing that's easy to say but in real life its just hard for me. It's just i can't help but compare myself to others people, and get this self-hatred feeling. I'm still trying to fix this thing. i often get really depressed about my physical appearance and thats just no good. Rather than focusing on things i'm lacking, i'm going to focus more on things i love, things i do well. Rather than being sad and complaining about my appearance, i'm trying to focus more on how to fix it. how to make it better. Grieving and complaining about your weakness doesn't solve anything, so i'm going to look at myself more positively. Take some time to exercise everyday, eat healthier, tidy my room, take care of my skin more, etc.  

Writing post in the middle of the night seems like my habit already. It is not my intention to write at midnight, but it feels like that time is perfect to pour all my thoughts while listening to soothing k-indie songs. At night, i can think about everything endlessly. Sometimes i can cry myself to sleep at night. Sometimes i think "Why me? Why things have to be like this?". I know that i made mistakes in the past and wondering why i did those things. Well, everybody makes mistakes right? Just face it and take it as a life lesson but remember not to make it twice. 

Sometimes i feel so insecure. No, all the time. I feel insecure about my skin colour, face feature, pimples, legs, and other things. Seems like i cannot live up people's expectation of beauty. I'm not sure if it is because the society. Society changes the perspective of beauty.

Negative thinking often pops out in my mind and i cant seem to get it out. Everytime i see someone who's better than me, i feel so insecure and useless. I am trying to fix these things. I won't let negative thinking surrounds me all the time. It is okay to be frustrated in some point, but we have to move forward. Live up your passion. Do what you love. Take activities and chances you never did before. Make friends and meet new people so you can get ideas from different perspectives. Visit a hidden and relaxing cafe and eat delicious dessert without thinking about diet. 

For the outfit, i wear this mini tutu skirt which have been hiding in my wardrobe for a long time. Totally loving my choker that i bought in a Japanese store. Actually i wasn't really into choker because i thought i won't suit me. Turns out that this one does! I love the pendant that has a vintage vibe.

xx,bella

Yep im finally back on track (again). Actually.. i dont know why i always delay my post and end up posting now. Maybe i feel like lacking of inspiration? There some post on my draft but i keep hesitating to post, and in the end i just abandon those post. I'm currently having school break until early August and all i've done is just sleep all day long like a koala srsly. I always sleep around 4 and wake up at 1 in the afternoon. Well, i just cant resist holiday vibe when you can sleep all day long without worrying abt assignment and stuff. This zara asymetrical skirt has been neglected for a while in my wardrobe. I'm not sure these days asymetrical skirt is still on trend, but well..i dont always follow newest trends tho. I pair it with my jeans vest which often shown up on my post for several times (Hope you dont mind). I think jeans vest is always perfect to pair up with girly dress or skirt. I'm going back to Jakarta tomorrow for a week. Cant wait to catch up with my friends and big family there, hope things turns out well and i can enjoy my time in jakarta <3 Also i just made a song playlist, well most of them are korean indie which i'm really diggin into right now. 

xx, Bella

I went to Urban Icon re-opening in Grand Indonesia. Urban Icon new store concept was really amusing. I love the minimalist and modern atmosphere in the store. The new concept gives a friendly vibe so the customer won't hesitate to look around and feel cozy in the store. There are many brands which you can find such as Fossil, Liebeskind, Melie Bianco, and others. I was craving for all the goods in the store especially the wallet and bags! The colours are mostly dominated by brighter colours since it is spring collection. The collection is not only for girls, there are many mens accessories such as wallet and watch. Take a peek at urban icon new concept on these pics! The store is already open for public so you can check out urban icons new concept straight away in Grand Indonesia! 

  

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